1.
I am a soulless woman
Apparently,
morally I don't object to shit.
Not like some dick who nurtures the wounds the world gave him
pretending like he doesn't feel anything
But like some chick who believed in a world that could not save her,
and for that
everyone is equally suspect and victim
Equally loved and hurt
Believed and burned
My intention was always to be the good girl
but neither she, or the bitch, will survive without cooperation
And the truth is that a "good girl gone bad" is not gone forever
She just loves harder and fucks smarter
Or
Loves smarter and fucks harder
(somewhere in there is pretty accurate)
2.
We were supposed to be pretty brides and virgins until then
We were given good advice
Told to keep our heads in the books
and a nickel between our knees
Told never to believe the man who told us he loved us if he wouldn't wait
or we'd end up pregnant and lose all our friends
There was no advise for the pansexual, the bisexual, and lesbian girls
and those who turned out to be infertile anyway
No wisdom for the daydreamer
Those who'd rather take that nickel to the corner store
good for one balloon
fill it with water and hit the boys
waging innocent wars
Those of us who thought fashion wasn't worth acceptance
but a brilliant mind was
and so were jokes that could possibly suffocate us
What we saw contradicted everything
And we vowed to stay in line anyway
Only to find that such line was shit
Something to keep us worthy to be proud of
to parents who stopped being proud of themselves
We are still struggling with these ideas
They've never suited the girls who've fled the church, the mosque and the mall
We've inherited an unstable world
Told to get stable jobs
find stable mates
have stable minds
These things are relative
Dare I say imaginative
So where do we go from here?
We hold tight to each other and run
Not from anything but toward it
Until we feel like we're living
and loving
and breathing
an experience
worth repeating.
-Roni I'naru
I am a soulless woman
Apparently,
morally I don't object to shit.
Not like some dick who nurtures the wounds the world gave him
pretending like he doesn't feel anything
But like some chick who believed in a world that could not save her,
and for that
everyone is equally suspect and victim
Equally loved and hurt
Believed and burned
My intention was always to be the good girl
but neither she, or the bitch, will survive without cooperation
And the truth is that a "good girl gone bad" is not gone forever
She just loves harder and fucks smarter
Or
Loves smarter and fucks harder
(somewhere in there is pretty accurate)
2.
We were supposed to be pretty brides and virgins until then
We were given good advice
Told to keep our heads in the books
and a nickel between our knees
Told never to believe the man who told us he loved us if he wouldn't wait
or we'd end up pregnant and lose all our friends
There was no advise for the pansexual, the bisexual, and lesbian girls
and those who turned out to be infertile anyway
No wisdom for the daydreamer
Those who'd rather take that nickel to the corner store
good for one balloon
fill it with water and hit the boys
waging innocent wars
Those of us who thought fashion wasn't worth acceptance
but a brilliant mind was
and so were jokes that could possibly suffocate us
What we saw contradicted everything
And we vowed to stay in line anyway
Only to find that such line was shit
Something to keep us worthy to be proud of
to parents who stopped being proud of themselves
We are still struggling with these ideas
They've never suited the girls who've fled the church, the mosque and the mall
We've inherited an unstable world
Told to get stable jobs
find stable mates
have stable minds
These things are relative
Dare I say imaginative
So where do we go from here?
We hold tight to each other and run
Not from anything but toward it
Until we feel like we're living
and loving
and breathing
an experience
worth repeating.
-Roni I'naru